I'm not a huge fan of pain. Unfortunately, pain is something that is no doubt hand in hand with any relationship.
The last time this happened, it was like as if a knife stabbed all throughout my heart. For the nth time, I’ve been 'killed' in one of the most painful ways a lover can do. And also for the nth time, I thought to myself, “Death is really sweeter…” (I applaud myself for being like a cat - with nine lives.)
Pain makes me view life negatively.
The last time this happened, it was like as if a knife stabbed all throughout my heart. For the nth time, I’ve been 'killed' in one of the most painful ways a lover can do. And also for the nth time, I thought to myself, “Death is really sweeter…” (I applaud myself for being like a cat - with nine lives.)
Pain makes me view life negatively.
I can’t control my man’s dealing with me so here’s a resolution I came up to:
"I'm currently struggling to keep myself from giving up. I realized that I needed to do things other than focusing about my love life. I want to be preoccupied with some things I used to be fond of doing. I want to make me forget I’m hurt. I want to pretend that nothing’s wrong. I’m fine. Really fine. I know I’m lying to myself, but it’s better than driving myself crazy over a mushy-turned-rocky relationship."
As always, I’m hoping I can do things as planned. I think it’s about time to love myself more. After all, even unconditional love cannot reform a person who's unable to change even after being caught so many times. I think it’s only fair to cut myself some slack and pay attention to the things I’ve taken for granted before.
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