Nice one, bro...

Minsan ang puso parang rubic's cube...

May susubok pero susuko rin...

May pipilit buuin pero iiwan din...

Pero may dadaan para mabuo...kaso sa bandang huli kapag nabuo na, guguluhin din ulit.

Calibrator...

The Avengers didn't disappoint. Not a single scene did. :)

My most favorite though is the part wherein Loki extends his scepter to Iron Man's chest just to discover "it" wouldn't work on him.

Why this scene? It reminded me of how important it is to guard my heart - literally and figuratively. Have a protected heart. I should. I must. Because I'm entitled with one - just one. And whenever it fail  me, or rather I fail because of it, it's not easy to "calibrate" it and have it anew...have it as good and as pure as new...have it whole without even a tinge of "dark side"...have it capable of knowing who to love or hate.

I don't know if that makes sense. I'm such an out-of-this-world person.

Lighter note: My fave is Captain America. Yeah. The boring. The bossy. The sexy. The yummy soldier. What??? Haha... :) So...move over muna James Franco...got myself a new lovesssss.

What went wrong?

Everything...


At one point in your life, all it takes is one person to ruin everything. And you have to start your life over. Like being born and raised again except you have to do it on your own.


Ahhhh... I want to "disinvent" crying.

Makes Sense...

Beautiful wisdom from a Nike ad many years ago:

You were born a daughter.
You looked up to your mother.
You looked up to your father.
You looked up at everyone.
You wanted to be a princess.
You thought you were a princess.
You wanted to own a horse.
You wanted to be a horse.
You wanted your brother to be a horse.
You wanted to wear pink.
You never wanted to wear pink.
You wanted to be a Veterinarian.
You wanted to be President.
You wanted to be the President’s Veterinarian.
You were picked last for the team.
You were the best one on the team.
You refused to be on the team.
You wanted to be good in algebra.
You hid during algebra.
You wanted the boys to notice you.
You were afraid the boys would notice you.

You started to get acne.
You started to get breasts.
You started to get acne that was bigger than your breasts.
You wouldn’t wear a bra.
You couldn’t wait to wear a bra.
You couldn’t fit into a bra.
You didn’t like the way you looked.
You didn’t like the way your parents looked.
You didn’t want to grow up.
You had your first best friend.
You had your first date.
You had your second best friend.
You had your second first date.
You spent hours on the telephone.
You got kissed.
You got to kiss back.
You went to the prom.
You didn’t go to the prom.
You went to the prom with the wrong person.
You spent hours on the telephone.
You fell in love.
You fell in love.
You fell in love.
You lost your best friend.
You lost your other best friend.
You really fell in love.
You became a steady girlfriend.
You became a significant other.

YOU BECAME SIGNIFICANT TO YOURSELF.

Sooner or later, you start taking yourself seriously. You know when you need a break. You know when you need a rest. You know what to get worked up about and what to get rid of. And you know when it’s time to take care of yourself, for yourself. To do something that makes you stronger, faster, more complete. Because you know it’s never too late to have a life. And never too late to change one.

JUST DO IT.

...

To be dumb?

or

To be numb?

...

One Word

Protection is often equated with physical means - vaccines, security guards, martial arts, etc. However, there's a kind of protection majority of us would never think about - protection from being emotionally scarred by others. We will never need to worry about being hurt since our day carries very little physical threat. But if we consider it to the mental and emotional level, there appears to be a different kind of possiblity that we may get hurt.

Here are some examples:

LET DOWN. "I'm so disappointed in you because you've let me down..." Disappointment comes from the perception that someone has not met our expectations. If they fail to do what they promised, we take it personally.

BETRAYED. "How can I ever trust you again?" The hurt comes when we expect people not to do things that can melt down our trust.

BROKEN PROMISES. "But you promised me..." It's a personal hurt when someone does not keep his word.

The key word to being hurt is expecting. We create our own suffering. Any hurt reactions are self-created and not caused by another person or event. Majority of the hurts stem from the fact that people are not behaving the way we want them to behave. It's like trying to control what we can't control. So you see, it's a mistake to make our happiness dependent on our expectaions of others.

I admit that in physical hurt, I'm not strong enough to protect myself. In emotional pain, I'm not powerful as well. So my question is, "Do I need to build a kind of 'bouncer system' that can guard the windows of my mind and the doors of my heart?"

...

Who would want a broken vessel?

Definitely not YOU.

Definitely not me.

A BROKEN VESSEL IS WORTHLESS & VALUELESS.

Sadly, I am a "broken vessel"...

The good thing is I'm not "crushed" YET.

...but who knows? Maybe I'll be...

...SOON.